A Home Full of Love

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Things are back to normal.

After this fleeting period out of the world and, it seemed, out of our own life, we’re a bigger, more tight-knit family. Everything is colorful again, bright, and full of joy.

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Nounou doesn’t want me to tell anyone, but I’m his favorite.

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Hugo loves nothing more out of his days than spending time with Hannah helping improve her speech. She loves it too.

I let them have this ritual together, but you can bet I’m going to butt in and watch. It’s too cute.

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He reads her stories at night, too. Really, if this kid can talk at all it’s thanks to her dad.

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I get the mornings and the breakfast fun.

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If this kid has Red Llama levels of energy and a weirdo sense of humor, that’s on me.

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“IT’S A PLANE, MAMMY!”

First Date in Forever

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Tonight, Hugo tires Nounou out with a bright pink laser dancing around.

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I bathe Hannah and put her to bed before the sitter arrives.

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And then Hugo and I go on our first date in an eternity. We’re both a bit worried. We haven’t been alone in so long, and after everything we’re not so sure jow it’s going to go.

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It went well.

Kitty

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A man in a suit walks into our apartment.

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And all of a sudden, the first floor is flooded with cats. I play with them all, get to know them, talk about them to the man in the suite, and in return he asks me questions.

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I’m really grateful today for our big our home is, as Hugo and Hannah are upstairs, playing, and don’t have a clue what’s going on.

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Just as I planned.

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I fall in love with a kitten, a little brown cutie-pie called Nounou.

And Nounou joins our family.

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The introduction of Nounou to Hugo is a success!

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They also fall in love. It’s amazing how much happiness this little ball of fur has already brought to the home.

Empathy

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Right on cue, Hugo walks into the room to ask if I need help prepping Hannah for bed. I tell him I want to talk. And while Hannah is deep into her MySims game, I finally talk to him, from my heart, with utter sincerity.

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At the beginning he’s not all that receptive. He still wants to leave the blinds and the cover on everything that hurts. But I won’t let him, not anymore.

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And finally he accepts my sincerity; and he accepts to speak, too. I listen, and I do my best to ease his pain.

And this is the beginning of our healing.

Remembering

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So once again, I go find shelter in the pages of my diary. I don’t expect it will help much at first. I’ve been doing that every day for a while now, but it’s more because I know I will feel even worse if I don’t.

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But today, as I start writing about Grandma’s visit, I find memories of her coming back to me. The great times we spent together. Everything she taught me.

I remember when her husband’s mean son came to visit, and she taught us how to deal with adversity. I remember her kindness, and her optimism, and her ability to defuse any situation, just by seeing the light everywhere it may hide. Better yet, I read about it, in some of my past entries.

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And now I do feel better. I feel like I can see the hidden light, too. That I know how to handle what life has thrown at me. Not just that, I think I know how to make things better, not just for me, but for us.